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JANUARY 2001
So,
I've got to start by saying sorry for not having written at least a year earlier - I hope someone reading this may remember me, My name is andy by the way - you may have a distant memory of a young guy with a very long beard - wasn't it beautiful? - I miss it lots.
When I got back I had to get a job and when I didn't those close to me tried to gently say that maybe, just maybe it had something to do with the big furry thing on by face. After many tears and sleepless nights as I realised this, I tried to remember a proverb I was taught "I am important and of value to GOd, I am important and of value".
By the way God is right now speaking to my best friend at uni. using my notes from the eric sprout week, and is bringing about a major work of healing in his life, just as he did amongst us in that warm semicircular room, amongst those beautiful people and many heartfelt tears. What a holy spirit we possess.
Ah yes the last two years : I'm training to be a doctor and I still love Jesus. Will that do? Life at university is hard. Its hard to be the christian that I was in guinea. My pride is in the way a lot - its such a big problem. I can be lazy and apathetic too. On DTS God showed many parts of me I didn't know ere there. Experiences I didn't know were possible, he showed me a fullness that I was yet to grow into. He showed me ahead of time all teh things that are possible in christ. I can't say it has been all the same since I got home, there have been many struggles, there certainly isn't all th e release I found on dts. I don't understand why. I do know God has led me on and is leading me on. I would really need to have a long think to get all this in perspective.
Now, I'm studying in birmingham, England, which is a big privalege. I thought on DTS that God was asking me not to do Medicine but, well, he didn't confirm that when I got home. Maybe I didn't have the faith to stand on what he had already said. It certainly would have been very hard to have followed that through. Maybe I got it wrong (i hope it wasn't that). Maybe as my father suggested, it was a kind of prophecy to be applied later. (anyone with any suggestions or experience of how God speaks and leads, suggestions are very welcome). So I'm trying to hold it loosely and do as best as I can.
I love you al very much - even when I haven't written, and I hope some Of my words gave a bit of insight into my post-dts life.
May the grace and peace of GOd be very real to you as you read this,
Andy